Auszug aus meinem Gedankenbuch von heute:

Es ist hart zu wissen, was man will. Seinen Idealen zu folgen... Die Leute verstehen einen nicht, wenn man davon spricht, warum man etwas gerade nicht tun will. Es geht um die Qual, die es einen bereitet, sich so verbiegen zu müssen. Jede Bewegung in die falsche Richtung ist einem zu wider. Stelle ich mir tatsächlich die Frage, das Knie zu beugen und das zu tun, was alle mir meinen raten zu müssen? Heißt das, ich bin unvernünftig? Oder stur? Es will mir nicht in den Kopf. Ich glaube nicht daran, das man nicht alles haben kann, was man wirklich will. Wenn man etwas nicht bekommt, dann wollte man es nicht genug.

Auch wenn es das alles so viel schwerer macht, fühle ich mich noch immer gesegnet zu wissen, was ich will. Gerade deswegen gibt es keine Alternativen, keinen Plan B und keinen Weg zurück.

~ entstanden aus Müdigkeit und Arroganz.

Again some time has past since the last time I posted. I needed one week to recover from my Asthma issues and then there was and still is so much to do for college and everything else that my head was totally somewhere else. I'm sorry for that. So here is just a small update.

In college my projects will be recording a song, filming a musicvideo, writing an essay about the Image of a music artist and of course and most important of all my bachelor. My topic is describing the life cycle of Visual Kei, especially in Europe. My hypothesis is that VK in Europe grows back and is replaced by K-Pop (for me personally this is a nightmare, but I'm constantly thinking about it, so I want to know). There will be a survey so everyone whi listened and still listens to VK and maybe also K-Pop can do this one. It will be up in June.



These photos I'm using at the moment on Facebook as profile and header image, for those who don't have Facebook or havn't seen it yet.



And this!!! is the dress I will wear at the wedding of a friend in two weeks. It's the first of my friends who will marry and I'm starting to feel old a little. But my conviction about that I never want to marry grows more and more... do I sound desperate? haha. Anyway. I will take the photos on this wedding as you may have heard and I'm very nervous about if I will do a good job or not. Keep your fingers crossed for me, please!

I hope I will be better now with my updates!

Cheers, mates~

Last weekend was the birthday party of dear drowned_emotion!
hizushi, pudor_verus, tsukasa_kenji & me travelled to her home for one night that we don't miss the party, which was actually ment to be a motto party. Most of the guests didn't take the instruction about motto so seriously, while pudor_verus and me took it maybe too serious, haha. I had the glorious idea of dressing up like Alex and his Droogys of Clockwork Orange. We also learned some quotes for our roles.



Here are the photos of our photoshooting of our costumes. We planned on doing that because we found our costumes quite splendid. Most of the people on the party didn't know the movie (philistines!!), but the birthday child did and that made us happy enough.



Here you see the birthday child with her boyfriend on the first picture, the other two are my journey companions.



And here are photos of us four together with drowned_emotion. The last four pictures were made by her.

Well, when we travelled back to Hamburg on Sunday I already had a cold (don't know because of coldness in the cellar where I was sleeping or allergy) and then the days after I became very sick. Different than the last time, but more serious. I hadn't had Asthma since some years, but the last days I can barely breath. Yesterday I was at my doctors and she ordered me some high medication. Today it's a little better still I can't take stairs without almost suffocating. My doctor also warned me and I have to be more careful now when I sleep somewhere else, because of allergy and everything... The last time sick was just 3 weeks ago with the flu and that annoys me.

I hope you are all better than me!

Cheers, mates~

Last weekend I was at my aunts in Schwerin again. I was there for a photojob, still I love also to see my uncle and cousins. Did I tell you that I have around 9 cousins? Anyway I really like it in Schwerin, not just my family but also the town and the area where they live. So I decided I wanted to show you the house they live in.



On the first picture you see my working place and how I took photos for the website of my aunt, which will hopefully be online soon. The next are some fabrics and a mood photo of a window.



On the left one is also a moodpicture. I really like the details. Then you see the entrance hall with door to the living room/kitchen/dinner room. Followed by a details picture of the living area with the red couch. In the distant you can see the dinner and kitchen area.



First one is an example of all the windows, followed by the dinner area and the kitchen.



These last ones are some details, the first one is outside on the terrace, window details and workplace detail of my aunt.



Here you see the small presents I got of my aunt. All are handmade. First one is a handy tissuecase, which is much more pretty than the plastic tissuecases. The next one is a 'Schokokuss' (the english translations were all stupid), which is crochet and I found so cute. Followed by me wearing a stole she made in blue. It's sewed like a circle so that there are no endings, you know what I mean? haha.

I really had a great weekend and there was so much more I would want to show you, but maybe the next time.

Cheers, mates!

P.S. This is a necklace a friend gave me. (The friend who will marry in May and where I will take the photos of her wedding.)

I catched a very bad flu last week and since Tuesday evening I was lying in bed and wasn't able to do anything at all. Today is the first day that I can sit at my PC for more than 5 minutes. I feel better, still I'm not completely healed yet.
Still today I was able to look after the photos I made the last weekend. We had beautiful weather. On friday I met up with visual_sunrise. We ate icecream, went around the alster and later we were sitting on the museum square of the Kunsthalle (you know where the big Spider is standing) for the rest of the day. My friend took two photos of me when we met at the Café, because she liked how the red of my hair was shining.



Later on the square in the early evening I took these photos. I think I catched the relaxed atmosphere of all the people who were there.
It was really a wonderful day!



On saturday I was meeting in_monochrome and we went to Planten un Bloomen (big park in Hamburg). There I took some photos of the early cherry blossoms and other flowers. On the last photo you can also see a squirrel on a tree. It was really cute but also looked scared. Maybe it was really young or was just enjoying the sun and didn't care about the people under the tree staring at him.



It was really a great weekend and on sunday there was the Florence + The Machine concert I wrote an review about in the last post. The start of the week was good, but then I became sick and now I have to catch up a little with my college stuff. I try not to stress myself because I don't feel completely healthy yet. My head is still heavy and full and I'm coughing all the time.

I hope you all feel better than me!

Cheers, mates~

Florence + The Machine – 25.03.2012 Große Freiheit 36



Here we go again with my next concert review. This time with an absolutely different kind of music. For those who are not interested in romantic, playful indie pop with a strong but high female voice, this could be not your thing. If you still want to read this article, you are most welcome of course.

( Click here for the heartache. )

I don't know when I will have my next review because there is no concert really planned. We will see... Thank you for your time and attention!

Cheers, mates!

As some of my friends know, I have always issues with my skin. So I'm always searching for better solutions that I can use to feel more comfortable. So this is going to be my first post about make up. Don't know if there will be more. It's just that I found something I want to post about.

( MISHA M Perfect Cover B.B Cream #21 )

Please tell me if you enjoyed this entry about Make Up, maybe I will do some more with the time.

Cheers~

Sorry, german.

Vor etwa 10 Jahren hat mich damals ein Buch und ein Film sehr inspiriert. Es hat mein damaliges Lebensgefühl widergespiegelt und es begleitet mich bis heute, meine Gedankenwege führen mich immer wieder dahin zurück. Es war das Buch 'Crazy'  von Benjamin Lebert und die gleichnamige Verfilmung mit Robert Stadlober als die Hauptperson Benjamin und Tom Schilling als der beste Freund Janosch. Über die Jahre habe ich auch die Bücher 'Der Vogel ist ein Rabe'  und 'Kannst du' von Benjamin Lebert gelesen und sie haben mich immer wieder auf eine neue Reise mitgenommen, die dennoch wie aus dem Leben gegriffen schien.

( Folge dem Klick! )

'Whatever people say I am that's what I'm not.'
- Artic Monkeys

Enter Shikari - Markthalle 2012.03.12

This is going to be my first concert review since the last 3 years. In Japan I used to do that all the time, but when I came back to Germany I closed up a little and I think that after all this time I start to open again. Also somehow yesterdays concert kind of inspired me to.

( Huge Concert Review - If you are interested take some time... )

And for sweetening for the end: ENTER SHIKARI IN JAPAN!

When someone actually reads all of this: CONGRATULATIONS! I'm proud to have you as my reader! Thank you so much for your time and attention! I mean that!

But it's alright when most of the people don't have time to read all this. But that would probably not take so much time that it took to write this review.

Next concert: Florence + the Machine!!

Cheers~

I really love to drink tea. Maybe I have that from my mum, but just because I'm not so fond of drinking simple water, but know how much I need water, I drink tea. My favorite kind of tea is peppermint, milk tea, green tea and jasmine tea. Peppermint is the kind of tea you can drink always and it's good for everything. I started to like milk tea since my friend Sarah from London showed me some milk tea bottles of the vending machines in Japan. You can buy them in the machines warm and cold and since then I drink milk tea to relax. Usually I drink green tea when I ate too much which can be quite often. haha. It helps the stomach to digest, but it's also a good diet tea, because it burns down the fat. It's one of the reasons japanese people can be so slim. And Jasmine Tea... well it smells beautiful and when it's brewed in the proper way the taste is delicious. I usualy don't sweeten my tea, just the milk tea sometimes.



Here you see two special sorts of tea. They are called flower teas, because they look like flowers obviously. Actually these are two tipes of jasmine tea. The first one I got from a fellow student and she bought it in a japanese tea shop. The second one, the already mentioned Sarah gave it to me back in Japan, when she came back from a journey to her family in London. I had 6 of them and kept the last one till this week. The second one tasted a little better, though it didn't blossom up so pretty like the other one.

~

And here shortly some shopping pictures:



The nailpolish I bought this week is finally the pink nude colour I was searching for since... ever. And the shoes I bought for my new outfit of the last post. They are pretty classy and I always wanted shoes like these. I guess I found my style now... Classics are best.

Tomorrow is the Enter Shikari concert in Hamburg! I'm really excited!

Cheers~